I can't talk to other people normally

I don't have much confidence and whenever I meet new people I am so self conscious and preoccupied with what they think of me I can't just relax and joke around and be myself. Conversation is always awkward and stifled. And I am very passive in that I will never be confident enough to tell a story or take charge of the conversation - I end up just passively nodding and smiling and being submissive, being too afraid to contribute. I have almost graduated from uni and still nothing has changed from when I first started - a shy awkward person. I almost want to drink to make things more relaxed. I am a girl btw. I have had boyfriends and I have many friends but ultimately being social does not come naturally to me....:( :(

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