When the Past Returns

Not new to reading threads just new to posting my own. We met in high school and hung out with the same people. We dated through high school and started a local college. Everything was gong great. She was by far the smarter one of us. She applied for a scholarship to a university she honestly did not think would consider her. Six months later, she was accepted. Telling me was devastating. We both were hurt that day. I had a long distance relationship a few years prior to this person and it ended in shambles. Too far away for teens back in the 1980's. We kept in touch and this ticked her off. Fast forward (to keep post short) to about a year later. We work things out to the best of our ability and date up to college graduation. We had another falling out and she did what she seemed best at, running away. She started graduate school and moved away. I moved away too and that was that until I returned home for ten year reunion and I run into her mother. I was given the third degree and told where to go. I will never forget when she said "you got xxx pregnant and walked away." I never knew she was pregnant. NEVER.... I confronted her and it got ugly really fast. To summarize it, I told her I want to see my child but to me, you are as good as dead. This was in 2002. I visited D every chance I could and tried my best to remain civil as possible. This past Christmas I received the usual card from D15 but it was signed by her mother too. Inside was a note from her. She experienced a lot of regret for the past. I wrote her back and that led to a few phone chats. D15 found out about us talking and confronted her. She had to admit to all the lies she told D16 over the years. D15 and I started talking a lot more. She admitted she had animosity towards me but it was due to what her mom had told her. We met (ex gf) earlier this year and it was awesome......until the past was dragged up. It would be great to reconnect with her but things can not materialize until she buries what burns her up inside. It is a win-win situation, D16 and I are a lot closer now. But I guess what haunts me is, D16 is spitting image of her when we met. We never were married but we have a child together. We had plans to....some 20 years ago. I guess I'm just looking for some feedback.....I don't know if I am crazy for even expecting anything to happen.

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