Need desperate advice on my Long Distance Relationship

Hello StudentRoom I'm a UK student here and I need some serious advice on my friendship with a girl in America. I don't know who or where to go to talk about it so I'd thought I'd post it here. Here is some background info to start with, so you know how we started talking: I started chatting to her on some online game-type chat room and before you knew it, we were messaging each other on a regular basis about general friend related stuff. She is smart, funny, pretty, mature and we get along so well. At the time I was about to finish Year 10 of secondary school and she was about to finish her first year of seniors (basically sixth form) so she is about 2 years ahead of me. Then we just stopped talking for about 6 months, but then conversation picked up again around 2 months ago, and I've never felt so close to her as a friend before now. We've both matured into new people and a lot has happened since the previous time we messaged each other, we even began Skyping each other we were so comfortable with one another. Even more so, the guy she was "dating" before then via an LDR ironically enough, no longer talks to her so now I believe that she sees me as a boyfriend of sorts. Which is all great to a point... Around the time we started Skyping, she was only a couple of weeks away from graduation of high school and the time leading up to it she pretty much only talked about it and how sad and excited she was, which was kind of annoying me because I'm about to start sixth form and I feel that she is leaving me behind in a manor of speaking, that I'm too young to talk to her. Then eventually her graduation came and she showed me tons of pictures of the ceremony, and in every one of them it looked so fun and happy to be at. Which then made me realise we don't have any of that here in the UK, and then it made me realise I have never been to any kind of social event like that, I didn't even go to my prom and I remember her telling me all about hers and all I could feel was regret for not going to mine. After that I've been questioning to myself every part of our relationship ever since, and the benefits of living in America. She has a lot more friends than me, which made me realise I'm actually quite lonely and confined to only a handful of people I can call friends, she is older than me so she drives and she has a job, which makes me feel like I'm lacking any responsibility or freedom in that sense, she is much more socially accepted and she tells me she is unpopular at her highschool yet she goes to so many more events than me and she has so many more acquaintances than me, she talks to someone new literally every month on Skype, which makes me feel very unwanted and secluded. And then I compare actually living in America to living one England, the housing is better, the education is better (to some degree) there are people there that actually like me, whereas here no girl would even consider talking to me here. Then I consider visiting her in America, but I'm worried I won't want to come back... so now everyday for the past couple of weeks I've been waking up with feelings of anxiety, regret, depression, uncertainty, even envy to a certain point, but even so, I still take comfort in talking to her because she's such a great friend to me, she is so kind to me. i need advice as to what I should do from here, I fear talking to her will only make matters worse as I grow to like her more everyday, but at the same time, I don't want to abandon her because I would genuinely feel so terrible for leaving someone who finds joy talking to me as much as I do in talking to her, I just don't know what to do anymore, I've never felt these feelings of anxiety up until now. please only post helpful comments, all advise is appreciated thank you

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