| Changing names, just in case she is reading this. My roommate set me up with this girl, named Jenny. Our first date was the best first date that I had ever went on, we met up for brunch at 2pm and we hung out the entire day (11pm). At the end of the date, we both wanted to hang out more but it was getting late... We dated from Jan - March, during that time she wanted to talk to me about getting serious. My prior relationship, I ended up with a pyscho gf. I wanted to drag my feet on this relationship to see how things went. She asked me to go to a music festival, and I said yes. (did not give her money yet) and we talked about if we stop seeing each other, I will remburise her if she could not find someone to go. I had a drug related issue wake and bake - major pot head. I never really wanted to hang out a lot during the week, and i told her I am dating other people and i suggest she did the same. I dead honest with her, and told her everything. I was not sleeping around.. I just wanted to make sure I went into a relationship about someone who i love and not just because she was there. End of March we got into a fight, and of course when i was stoned during that time. I did not pick up my phone and I let her walk out my life. Week later, I realized i made a mistake and spent all of April trying to win her back. During this time i quit the pot, realizing my past mistakes keep coming back and I wanted to change my life for the better. I wanted her back and she responded basically she said nothing more than friends and i said it wont work. I would want her back and she didnt and it would put her in a situation that i wouldnt want to force upon or things get worse... As of May 20th, I sent her a long e-mail stating how i felt and accepted the break up and wanted to fix things. End on better terms.. Basically it was a cold e-mail and that it is what it is and its over. Last week she posted (according to my roommate) that she was selling the tickets to the music festival... he ran into 2x that week, and i told him please dont bring her up. I dont want to think about her anymore.. I get depressed and down about the whole thing... so she txt'd me monday, saying she couldnt find anyone to go with.. and was wondering if i wanted to buy them from her or she will put it up on stub hub. I txt'd back and basically told her I only wanted to go with her and ya they are playing all my favorite bands. and that I told her i gave her my word if she could not sell them I would buy my ticket so she wouldnt be out 300 $... I sent her flowers at work on Tuesday.. and she txt'd me if I sent them. I told her enjoy, I felt bad about the music festival and putting her through all that.. she said t hank you, She txtd me yesterday how everything is going... I responded and said things are great... and i stopped the whole pot thing and this and that.. we sent a few txt message back and forth... and that was it. I am getting very confused, on what is she doing. I am not trying to win her back, I did everything... and I want to respect what she said. Now she txt'd me after the fact.. and Im confused; and I dont know what to think now. Should I just keep doing my own thing? Or .... ? I realized my mistakes and I do still have feelings for and think about her. I just don't think I should do anything, because she has told me nothing better than friends. | |||
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