I'm still in love with her...

Hi, I was seeing a girl for around 3 months and we clicked, she got me I got her, same personality, she was perfect for me. We fell out because we was both out and I pushed her, I was basically paralytic as it was my 18th and have no memory of this whatsoever, but I understood why because her ex had been abusive in the past so she put up a barrier. Anyway we fell out for a month or so and in that period of time, shes unfriended me, blocked me on whatsapp, I've had her hit me, she spoke to an ex about me and her best mate come up to me and said she still loves me but wants time? Last weekend though she messaged me saying sorry for being a bitch and that she does want to be friends, I accepted that and agreed, she said she didn't want me to say sorry and that we should leave it at that in terms of saying sorry. She's also got a jumper back that I've asked back for countless times she says she will give it back and that's about it, it's as if she don't want to give it back. Getting to the point, over the period of time we've fallen out I started to get over her in little bits, it didn't seem to hurt as much no more, but on Saturday I was out and as I was heading into the toilets, she tapped me on the shoulder and hugged me, we had a brief chat and that was that, I saw her again the smokers area and she said hello again and put her hand on my face for reasons I do not know! Seeing her just made me fall back in love with her, I realised I'm nowhere near getting over her, she's my first love and I honestly pray that one day we can get things going again. I don't know if she still has feelings for me, she said she was in love with me when we was seeing each other and the night before we fell out we basically had verbally agreed to be going out, for all I know she could be seeing someone else by now. All I know is that I still love her and as much as I hate to admit it I want to get back with her. I want to talk to her and see where I really stand but I know she won't do that! What do I do? Advice is needed! Thank you

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