He cheated and had a kid!

I am new at this. I am one who does not speak much about my marriage so bare with me please. I have been married 7 and a half years, we married pretty young I had a one kid going into the marriage as he had two. Then had two kids together. My marraige with him wasnt always perfect, but I want to say we manage it all well. we had our share of fights and great memories. I cant say I was the perfect wife but I did what was needed to keep our family together. We fought all the time because I kept feeling he was cheating and I couldnt let it go. Even though I knew he was not faithful I still loved him and was in it till the end. sooo...long story short my husband got deported two years ago and our marriage was rocky when this happend but I stood by him. I have been supporting him in every way I could while living in the US being a single mother. It was hard and my hell!!! Come to find out this April he was cheating on me and they have a kid thats is about two years old !!! I have also come to find out there was many he cheated with while he was here. This all tore my world apart because I gave everything to him to make things work. I dont understand how he could do this. That girl and kid have being going to vistit him and he hid it from me all along. claims he was comming foward so he can really make our marirage work out and was afraid of loosing me and it was hard since he didnt want to just leave the other kid without a father. I have filed for a divorce. I am ashame in myself for still loving him, my kids are so sad of all this and I try so hard to keep a smile on my face so they do not see my pain! (but i am complety broken inside) I have already told our close family memebers and they support me which I feel is great. I guess I am here for support since I never went threw anything like this. I need a view from another angle of someone who does not know either of us. I can still after all this pain say I love him. But I don't feel I can stay with him because of the kid...

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