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I think I am done with waiting for him to figure it out

So it has been 6 weeks exactly since my husband of only 8 months decided that he wasnt sure whether or not he wanted to be married to me anymore, and packed his things and moved back in with his parents. As you can imagine my life has been in shambles of not knowing if this is the beginning of the end or not. His only explaination is that he cant see how it will work and that somethings(nothing major) that I have done in the past he cant get over (again nothing major). However, he was coming by everyday taking out the trash, watching "our" shows, doing the norm, but not sleeping there.

Eventually I put a stop to being his doormat and started doing what was best for me and my children. I have painted the bedroom and removed his clothes from the closet. Overall I am doing ok, I've also been doing a lot of reading on separation and hoping for the best, preparing for the worst.

Last Friday, he came over to visit and it was great. We both had a really fun time (as we always have) catching up on our favorite shows and just enjoying each others company. The boys (we both have a son each) also loved their time together, a picture perfect Friday. It got late and I let him and my stepson stay the night, and we all couldnt have been happier.

A couple days later, after conversing over a couple txt msgs, I called him and asked would he give marriage counseling some more thought. He told me that he wasnt going to marriage counseling for a marriage he doesnt see working. Of course, I was hurt but also disappointed that he isnt even willing to consider saving our marriage.

Right now I feel that there isnt anymore hope for us and why continue to fight. I cant make him want this nor do I want to make him. He claims that he loves me and in love with me but just doesnt see how its going to work (whatever that means). I am considering whether or not I want to meet with an attorney and get the ball rolling on a real legal separation or am I just emotional.

I just dont know what to do now. I am sick of waiting for him to decide if I am a good enough person to stay married to. I am sick of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I love him but I dont think I want to continue to wait for him to figure it out.

Someone please tell me if im making any sense or and I just being impatient?




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