| This is my first post, so I will put a little background about myself and my relationship. I truly appreciate you taking your time to read this and offer any advice. I am a 20 year old female. When I was 18, I met a guy at my work. The circumstances of our relationship are a little different(and probably strange to those who do not understand). I was 18 and he was 15 when we started dating. Due to some things in his life, he is a very mature individual. His family highly approved of me and my family approved of him. We dated for 1.5 years, and recently broke up about a month and a week ago. Before we started dating and for the first several months, it was like a fairy tale. I guess you could say he was my first "real" love, and I was his also. It was genuine. He never did anything to hurt me. Sometimes, I can be a very difficult person because I am extremely sensitive and I have trust issues. It was hard in the beginning to trust him, but over time I learned how to do so. This was a really big step for me to take. Several months before we broke up, the relationship started to die down a bit. We started not hanging out as much. We started not texting as much. And we were bickering more and more. We had always bickered a lot throughout our relationship. But it was getting worse. Then, a month ago, while I was at his house, he tells me that he thinks we are incompatible. I told him that I disagreed and I thought we were compatible. He told me more about how he felt and I listened. That night after I got home, I texted him and said something along the lines of "mayb e you were right...". We ended up breaking up that night. The break up was 60% him(because he brought it up) and 40% me(because I agreed). That next week was hell for me. I had never experienced this sort of deep depression before. I truly thought I was going crazy. For the first couple of days after the break up, he would text me as if we were friends(he would be friendly in his texts). However, that soon started to turn into arugments whenever I would tell him how much I wanted him back. This went on for almost a month. I was nearly begging him to take me back. About a week ago, I realized that I will never get over him if I keep in contact with him. So I told him I needed space so I could move on from our relationship, and that once I am "moved on" then it'll be easier for me to be friends with him. It's been a little over a week since we last talked. I've been up and down this past week, but I think I am beginning to move on. I do think about him every day(probably 75% of the day he is on my mind), but I am not in such a deep depression over him. In fact, yesterday I actually felt at peace. The feeling didn't last, but I have been noticing that I'm getting more and more of this "peaceful" feelings that lasts for about 10 minutes. Many times, I can think of him and not feel so sad. I'm wondering if it sounds like I am moving on ? I am doing everything I can to help myself move on. I (politely) cut off contact with him, I am seeing a therapist for my depression, and I am trying to meet more people. Also, does anyone know if it is possible that one day we could be friends again? He was a nice person, and was very funny. I know I can't be friends with him now, but once my feelings have gone away, is it possible? | |||
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