What the heck am I thinking?

I am new and joined because I feel the need to talk and don't really have anyone I can do that with. I have been happily married for over twenty years. We have a twenty year old daughter. Though I love my husband dearly and we are happy he isn't the love of my life. I met the love of my life thirty years ago when I was in my mid-teens. I know some may say how do you know at 16 that this person is the love of your life? I don't know I just knew it. He was in the service then and we saw one another as much as we could. When he got out he came to see my brother (this guy and my brother were friends) and to surprise me. He lived four state away from me. During the time he was here my brother the day before this guy was headed back for home told me to let him go that he had someone back home waiting for him. This utterly broke my heart and I never asked this guy and I should've if it was true. It took me along long long time to finally tuck him into a piece of my heart and move on. Fast forward twenty six years to about three months ago. I don't know how but he found me on none other than facebook. He found me through my brothers ex-wife and said he was looking for my brother when in all actuallity he was really looking for me. We have had a few conversations and the truth from all thoose years ago came out. He never had anyone back home, he had come to actually see if I would go back to his home state with him but my brother told him the day before he left that I had someone here and had told that person I needed time to think over our releationship. Not at all true. So in all actuallity my brother altered the corse of our lives. He went back home eventually moved on and got married I stayed put eventually moved on and got married. Now he is divorced and has been for a few years. Here I am happily married to an awsome man that I know in time I am not going to have anymore (my husband currently has severe health issues). This guy and I talk, we vent to one another and slowly thoose old feelings are starting to resurface in both of us, however I love my husband and will NOT leave him. Our talks are short and about everyday stuff and family. However that still is bringing out thoose old feelings. Wich brings me to what the heck am I thinking? I know it's not really complicted and I know I should not let thoose feelings resurface. Maybe I am trying to live in the memories of how happy we were together. I don't think the old adage of "If you love someone set them free if they come back it was meant to be" applies here. Shoot now I am confusing myself. What the heck am I thinking? Thanks for letting me vent.

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