verbal abuse

i really don,t know what to do & also don,t know if this is really as bad as i feel it is-i think the problem is i have put up with it for so long i am used to it.i have been with my husband for 40 yrs(second marriage for us both)i had 2 children by my first husband & we have a child together-he has always had a bad temper & a short fuse which he blames on his bad childhood ,however i always knew to avoid something that would spark him-over the last possibly 10 or more years the fuse has got shorter & litrally anything can start him,obviously the children are all grown up & we live alone now-his verbal abuse & temper can be over something so petty it is unbelievable,he screams,shouts,insults me,swears profusely,accuses me of anything (like making visitors too welcome so they stay longer than they should)throws things,threatens me,pushs me & litrally terrifies me,i cannot argue back as if i try to say something he,s in my face threatning me-he look s like a mad man-i am made to sit & take it as he is much bigger & stronger than me & could do so much damage.a 2 day ignoring follows & then he slowly acts as if nothing ever happened-what worries me now is although these episodes frighten me at the time they don,t really upset me anymore,i have never had a temper & am a completely different personality to him-i have always been the 1 who takes all the responsibility for the house/bills/kids/budget & have always worked-i know he feels inferior but when i,ve in the past asked him to take over the running of things he doesn,t want to know-i don,t know what the answer is but just to write it down makes me feel better.i just feel stuck,too old to do anything about it & don,t know how to get a peaceful life again:(:(

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