How do I get over all the lies?

I am going through a breakup of over 5 year relationship and I keep involuntarily going through all the lies in my head. Literally hundreds. If you had asked me what I valued the most in a relationship, it would've hands down been honesty. I feel like a total fool, I feel disgusted with myself and the entire situation, I feel jaded and angry. I don't want to be angry. I am happy to be rid of that slime ball but I cant get over the...nerve...she had to lie so pathologically, the utter lack of conscience, the excuses I know she has in her head for why she lied. I cant stand living under this dark cloud. I feel so good about myself now until I think back on yet another lie and think ugh omg wtf seriously??

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